it's march already.

actually when you take a step back

time seems to have slowed

though the daily rising and setting of the sun

seem ever so quick.

which is good.

it means that the days are fully spent.

has been almost a month since

i started at Lasalle.

and almost 2 since i left the service.

lasalle has been good so far

people are warm and funny

though work can seem alittle

dry at times

but it aint getting on my nerves yet.

good endurance. hoho.

it hasn't reached

the level of satisfaction

which will make people keep looking forward

to it everyday yet.

and somedays

i wished i was back in the service.

where i could do alot more

and stretch my influence across

a wider field.

whatever it is

it is over now

and whatever that is left

are decent impactful memories.

time to move on.

surely life would get better i hope

where the direction and path become clearer,

more purposeful,

more lively,

more flavour-ful

and more joyful.

joy has always been a luxury

and very much superficial.

i guess i would

hardly ever be able to prevent

it from slipping out of my fingers any time soon.

there are days which one yearns for simplicity.

peace.

today

i crave for greatness.

ambition.

i dont want to settle for second best.

i dont want to start from the bottom of the food chain,

or worse still,

be stuck at the receiving end.

but caution

and humility

must accompany such wild lust.

remember, remember

a man is capable of so much more

when he sets his mind on it,

backed by a spirit which is driven by the heart.

you will never know it

until you try.

and when you get there

you will want to seek

to destroy more barriers.



this is the infantryman,

the leader, the slave and the master.

i dont feel too well tonight.

i feel grouchy.

my neck hurts.

i can't walk properly.

it's getting late.

i hope i feel better tomorrow.

where are those cold quiet nights

where are the msn messenger windows keep ringing

what's next

i should live more in the moment

and stop peering too far ahead.

actually

everything's going rather well and planned.