JQ's THREE LAWS OF EMO

1. Happiness is a privilege, you'll never get it.
2. Life sucks and shit happens.
3.
i cant remember the third one, will write it down when i recall it.

hah cool.

im feeling alittle harsh on myself again.

somewhat angsty.

and vengeful.

annoyed

but slothful.

and shit.

im 20 already.

but i still aimless.

ns will end in 2 weeks time.

all achievements will be nullified once i leave.

im already starting to feel something wearing off.

and then it's back to ground zero again.

ok fine.

im not feeling happy.

im not even feeling ok.

WTF IS WRONG WITH ME!

either i lament being too tired out with work

or i start to shit myself when im too free.

i hate myself.

i dont have many friends left.

and i risk having to lose the very few.

i have alot of time.

yet i have no plans.

i have alot of energy replenished now.

yet i do not have any drive to spend them.

they are now coming to waste.

i dont have anything to look forward to now.

i leave time ticking like its endless.

they say ord is something to look forward to.

they say they cant wait for ord.

but i find nothing special about ord.

it will come in the end.

and its not when it comes,

its how it will come.

i have no joy i have no joy i have no joy i have no joy i have no joy i have no joy i have no joy i have no joy i have no joy i have no joy i have no joy i have no joy i have no joy

i dont want to talk about anything i dont want to do anything i dont want to talk about anything i dont want to do anything i dont want to talk about anything i dont want to do anything

i dont even feel the yayness to end my service like the end of a levels.

i had it in december.

but not anymore.

maybe its too drastic a change from a mother hectic life to one that it is peaceful and slow.

i hate myself.

this is embarassing this is embarassing this is embarassing this is embarassing

why do other people have so much joy in them why do people feel so much happiness why do people have so much joy in them why do people feel so much happiness

i even tried eating chocolates, ice cream, running to release endorphines.

but i feel like thrash soon after.

is this the so called fairness and trade offs in life.

i feel no joy i feel no joy i feel no joy i feel no joy i feel no joy i feel no joy i feel no joy i feel no joy i feel no joy i feel no joy i feel no joy

i like solidarity.

yet i hate it.

i enjoy feeling no joy.

and i hate feeling no joy at the same time.

i wish this was as easy as just clicking the restart game option.

im a sad passive reluctant creature im a sad passive reluctant creature im a sad passive reluctant creature

even the queen of england has the right to complain.

all these entries have been about me.

you dont know me.

so dont judge me.

this blog is mine.

i have the right to write about myself.

AFTER ACCOMODATING EVERYONE SINGLE MOTHER SON OF A BITCH OUTSIDE

I THINK I HAVE EVERY RIGHT TO TALK AND INDULGE IN MYSELF OVER HERE

BECAUSE NO ONE CARES BECAUSE NO ONE CARES BECAUSE NO ONE CARES BECAUSE NO ONE CARES

I DONT EVEN CARE ABOUT MYSELF TONIGHT

STOP THE FACE SAVING SHIT.

THIS IS ME.
YA.
SO.

YOU DONT JUDGE ME COZ YOU DONT KNOW ME YOU DONT JUDGE ME COZ YOU DONT KNOW ME YOU DONT JUDGE ME COZ YOU DONT KNOW ME

i feel no peace i feel no peace i feel no peace i feel no peace i feel no peace i feel no peace i feel no peace i feel no peace i feel no peace i feel no peace i feel no peace