i like my blog.

and i like to sleep.

coz then

my troubles would go away.

acpc yesterday was good.

almost 9/10 there to being a full fledged infanteer.

or so i thought.

velden said

take your job seriously

but dont take yourself too seriously.

yu tse said

i tend to run away from my problems

(and so does he).

yan zhi has this on his facebook

“I believe there's a hero in all of us that keeps us honest,
gives us strength,
makes us noble,
and finally allows us to die with pride,
even though sometimes we have to be steady
and give up the thing we want the most.
Even our dreams.”

they re all right.

but i have a stubborn tendency

to stick to my thinking

and accept those only that has a ring to it.

i like to be in camp

where im with all my friends,

whom i wouldnt see anymore in a week's time,

rather than be cooped up at home

and let thoughts run wild all over again.

but ironically i sometimes wish to be alone.

honestly

i have trouble squaring away with myself.

i dont get what i want

and i get upset.

yet in the first place

i didnt fight hard enough to secure it.

rehearsals are tiring.

but i guess it would be worth it.

and i will surely miss ocs by then.

and they should give me an ivory bayonet

for being the first to run around the parade square.

i think i should write

a memoire on my infantry life

before it fades into oblivion

due to my unintended and helpless negligence.

well.

i shall bask in the joy ( and pain)

of my final week.

till then.