i think im godly.

i survived

2 x soc

1 x route march

1 x fast march

1 x ippt

and 1 x 9km run

all in one week,

and managed to come home in one piece

though book out was albeit late,

2330.

i'm proud to be an army wing cadet,

all you waterbois and kite flying kiddos

can just watch us win the day.

field camp next week.

off to teeeeekong for 10 days.

nvm.

wo hui ao chu yi ge chun tian lai.

this week had been so rush

and hectic

and extra extremely tiring,

considering all the effort we put in

and the results yielded.

it was a good week.

however,

it's just that sometimes,

despite all the commotion

and noise

and adrenaline rushes

that i hear,

notice,

and feel,

my heart is stoney and lonely.

on good days like these,

i am able to stand tall

and step on the shoulders of others.

but on other days,

i'll just crumble right from the inside.

i yearn for a break,

a holiday,

a breather.

i yearn for

the release of my soul.

i yearn for someone,

just someone

to say "eh good job"

or "hang in there"

or "you are missed"

or "hope to see you soon"

or "i wished you were here".

all of which are luxuries

that i cannot afford,

for a very very long time.

just give me a sweet dream

every night.

that will at least

ease the ache

for the time being.