okay.

here goes.

it's gooodbye world again.

for 18 days first.

hah.

jezz do it man.

at the end,

i hope it's all worth it.

there'll surely

be times when i'll feel like dying,

and times when i'll feel like,

dying.

but nonetheless,

jezz do it.

i'm still searching

for my direction and aim.

goodbye kids.

see ya soon.

SOOOOOOOOON. nehbong.

your past

never quite go away

and we never

quite got there.

then again

there wasn't

really a "we"

more of a

"I".

i cant get pass it.

no i can't.

whenever there's nothing to do

or think

it just comes back

back

back.

all over.

why do i

always

feel broken?

when will i ever

be whole again?

sing a song

for you

and

for me.

pop loh!

every time i return home

for the weekend

it feels like a super long ncc activity.

hooohooo

nonetheless it's all over.

gonna miss my section

and all the other keesiao kias.

haish.

oh wells.

i guess some things

happen onyl when you're willing

to put effort into them.

i feel like sleeping.

why does bmt feel

like another ocip

or adventure camp?

haha.

on such a gloomy day

you realise you have

no one to call

or message.

[[=]]

was so much of a past thing.

no one is to mention the c word again.

it's taboo.

it has been so long since

i felt any sense of self satisfaction

and gratification.

why am i always

so close yet so far?

nan dao shi

xiao shi liao liao da wei bi jia?

i kinda miss jc

and the skirts.

well

three more to pop.

then 12 days leave.

and off to screw-you-hard land again.

off to shower

and back to camp.

bye darlings

remember to sing yourselves a song,

one for me too

if you have the time.

once again

music is my respite.

im just glad im home

away from the hypocrites

heartbreakers

and all the stress.

and once again

i can hardly describe how im feeling right now.

i just want to be alone

but ironically

i dont feel like being alone.

please

carry me home

to the place i belong.