i dunnoe man.

i feel like crap these days.

i wish life

would resume

to the familiar routine.

sometimes

small little things

can irritate me

and make me feel annoyed

for the whole day.

and in many of these sometimes,

even smaller things

can ease the frustration

and torment of such

self imposed irritation.

such as the laughter

of people around me

and my all so adorable juniors

and to hear how much

theyve enjoyed and appreciated [hc:tkd].

this is enough

to make me go back often

to see them

(and help them in their patterns

no matter how much i suck at doing them).

most importantly,

they allow a post-jc 19 year old

who's feeling as if the world

stopped spinning

to feel that the it

just started moving again.

i wished

there was a backspace key

for me to hit.

and a click-drag-highlight-delete function.

damn tired.

sometimes

i wished if i could

have everything i wanted.

or if i could give up some things

in exchange for others.