what keeps you going?

is it the thought

of not wanting to lose

to the asshole beside you,

whose brain is so large

that it amounts to 10 million chinkiats?

is it the thought

of lavishing in the pure joy

of total freedom after the exams?

is it the thought

of someone silently backing you

all the way to the end?

is it the thought

of self fulfillment and satisfaction?

is it the thought

of not letting god down( whatever that means)?

is it the thought

of not wanting to leave any regrets,

so that you can go crazy

and run around naked in a skin cut hairstyle

next march

even though there ain't no

perfect score?

for me,

it was not wanting

to lose to the assholes

in front, behind,

to the left and to the right of me

whose brains can fit 10 million chinkiats

and maybe another 5 thousand prcs.

im a primate.

survival is instinct.

but now,

i just seek self fulfillment.

to fight hard,

and leave no regrets.

i cannot get 95 for maths

neither can i get 80 for physics.

i may not even get straight As.

but it doesn't matter,

'cause smart genes don't run in me,

i won't do myself a disservice

as long as i leave no regrets.

taken from the great words

of sir martin koh (wherever he is now).