it'd be fine,

if i fight

and leave no room for regrets.

wo gen ni ping ming le

si wang ba dan.

SHA GUO LAI LE!

like what the hell,

it's not even my paper tomorrow.

im losing my calm.

hope,

dangles on a string.

time comes to a slow.

seemingly to remind

of how little there is left.

the breathlessnesss

is overwhelming.

i want my 4As

as much as i want llow.

i need to keep my sanity.

1242.

1243.

1244..

suddenly,

everything seems surreal.

after rotting my sagging ass off

in front of the tv for the past 4 hours,

it just struck me.

all the boohoo-i-miss-my-friends-and-school whines

that you see so often in blogs

came rushing into my lazy ass.

for the past month

ive been trying to keep myself

as cool as a cucumber,

trying not to overheat

and to grow my output in tandem

with my potential output (hmm sounds familiar)

to prevent burning out too soon.

as such,

the school-is-ending-ohmigod emotions

never quite got me.

its like dusk,

where the diners start to draw the blinds

and the lights are dimmed.

everything is starting to come to a close

where the end of the day beckons

and a dinner by the candle lays in wait,

for the man to return.

its just that

before cosying up to the lady

at the end of the table

you have to drive through the congested roads,

endure all the noise, smog and curses

of the evening traffic.

As is such a pain in my ass.

its just the last potential barrier (sounds familiar..)

to tunnel through

before reaching the other side.

all is coming to an end.

soon.

bang bang bang.

杀死他

hao lei ah

not another silly love song.

one day the world will be mine.

one day cats and dogs will stop fighting.

one day Man will stop killing Man.

one day the moon will fall out of orbit.

one day night will never come

and itll be day all day long.

when will the one day be?

i think its the side effect of medication.

i can't take it anymore.

i wanna throw my hands up in the air

and say "screw you world"

and plunge.

this is such a horrible stint.

im missing [[=]]

terribly.

i wanna give up.

the damage has been done.

the consolation hasnt set in.