i have no idea

how im gonna cope

and ace in the end.

im so god damn distracted

by things that shouldnt be around

and by the usual sleeping disease.

now i really lament studying for exams

like really lament.

i dont feel the pressure to do well

the animal spirit (sounds familiar, hmm)

to beat others flat.

could a curse

and a blessing.

i feel that ive moulted

out of my old skin.

im talking more about myself

but feel less for myself.

im no longer as feeling towards others

what others do or say

do not affect me that much anymore.

i couldnt care less about my results now

though its the ONLY thing to back me up.

i find it easier to talk to

and understand others.

i feel kinder

and more evil at the same time.

i feel more at ease.

i feel bitched.

damn,

im one confused pos.