i was relieved of duty 2 years ago,

but took on the responsibility again last april.

i don't know if this one is a bigger one or not,

all i know is that i have a duty to fulfill

and i will do so.

all of fame and glory is not so easy to handle,

especially when things get awry.

it has been such a long time

that ive been burdened by responsibilities,

deadlines,

unsurmontable tasks,

incessant beckoning,

and nonchalant authorities.

i used to have my hands at things

now im so lost.

maybe its also because alot have changed

especially when you decide to absent yourself

from the life of your past

and indulge in the present.

no one seems concerned,

maybe i shouldn't too.

they'll probably call me stupid,

naive

and god-playing.

maybe i should really wash my hands off things.

prosper or ruin

will not be up to me then

and will not be my fault

nor my responsibility

or commitment.

but such action

will make me a coward

and a glory-kissing deserter.

time is not by my side,

has never been.

maybe ten years later

or maybe five

or even two years this day,

the event will be shoved into

the undusted records of trivality.

but then again,

at least i will do something

for the good of the organisation

and be able to the answer to the men of yester years and tomorrow.

i need some time to think about the situation of things now.


bless our unit, home.
i never had one,
till i found
RVNCC_________

hmmm

sometimes

some things

are better left untouched

'cause they'll probably be better if they stayed that way.

or maybe

it's just a lack of action

and too many words.


the mind cannot transcend