c'mon man

which &^%&^GHVU*T*^TY wakes up for 4 hrs

and goes back to snooze the rest of the day away,

wakes up at dinner time

and feels like sleeping again?

goddamnit.

ya me

my mind just keeps running and running

and running, like mechanical clockwork,

around the same race track

over and over again.

but the body is so weak and lethargic

its a pain to even try to stop.

i needa pluck out my hair

puke my guts out

dump those shoes

apply some sunblock

and crash into the wall.

maybe they'll make those running stop.

i need my god damn rest time.

so why wouldnt u just let me off?

its so dazzling

that its killing me.

argh.

our comp team is screwed.

there is no rest time.

im getting lazier.

my bagua's running out.

there's too much hmwk to handle.

MY MIND WOULDNT GIVE ME A BREAK.

my asics are worn out.

im eating less and less.

my foot's swollen.

i need to RE-study physics.

it's so hot.

seee how screwed i am????!??!!?!!?!?!?!?!?!!?!?

okay,

maybe it's my fault.

but it feels better to complain a little.

but

GODDAMNITTTTTTTTTT

I NEEED A BREAKKKKKKKKKK

lamong.

i got a cauliFLOWER from my dear mortal

and a toilet bowl scrub as my rose.

lol

not bad la

outrageously creative.

my darling angel also not that nice la

gave me a HUMONGOUROUS BANANA

lol

ohmigod, theyre damn sexy la.

haish.

today was a i-hate-school day.

stoned my day away.

trg was cancelled

and that kinda killed my mood.

lamong.

doesnt feel like cny.

ehh

my cauliFLOWER really looks like a flower from far,

just that its starting to mould, i think.

zah

my sexy back's starting to give me problems again.

just chop me up.

i wonder where'd everyone go.

_______________________________________

it's not bad to get high once in a while.

credit to yutse's sexy meiji taste-like-soil chocolate.

i guess when you're happy

all things just seem so bright

even if some stuffs just put you down

you'll still be able to rub it off somehow.

my juniors are well taught

to be the masters of the future.

all the best to them,

go rvncc,

go get them.

the world is yours.

im having such a hard time

expressing myself.

i guess its time to speak again,

but that has to wait till i master

the art of talking again.

im gonna be superman again

just you wait and see.

okay

maybe it that ambition wont last for long.

oh well.

i was relieved of duty 2 years ago,

but took on the responsibility again last april.

i don't know if this one is a bigger one or not,

all i know is that i have a duty to fulfill

and i will do so.

all of fame and glory is not so easy to handle,

especially when things get awry.

it has been such a long time

that ive been burdened by responsibilities,

deadlines,

unsurmontable tasks,

incessant beckoning,

and nonchalant authorities.

i used to have my hands at things

now im so lost.

maybe its also because alot have changed

especially when you decide to absent yourself

from the life of your past

and indulge in the present.

no one seems concerned,

maybe i shouldn't too.

they'll probably call me stupid,

naive

and god-playing.

maybe i should really wash my hands off things.

prosper or ruin

will not be up to me then

and will not be my fault

nor my responsibility

or commitment.

but such action

will make me a coward

and a glory-kissing deserter.

time is not by my side,

has never been.

maybe ten years later

or maybe five

or even two years this day,

the event will be shoved into

the undusted records of trivality.

but then again,

at least i will do something

for the good of the organisation

and be able to the answer to the men of yester years and tomorrow.

i need some time to think about the situation of things now.


bless our unit, home.
i never had one,
till i found
RVNCC_________

hmmm

sometimes

some things

are better left untouched

'cause they'll probably be better if they stayed that way.

or maybe

it's just a lack of action

and too many words.


the mind cannot transcend