im appalled

at the rate of time passing.

last weekend seemed only like yesterday.

there are more lumps to my shin.

the indominable master jiawei

remains unconquered.

okay

dreamland time.

shall worry bout my painful leg n butt tmr.



time, just stop.

i hate it

when theres something at the back of my mind

that keeps bugging me

and i wont feel at ease

till i get it out of my head.

ill just sleep it out

sulk

and till finally i cant bear with it anymore,

ill get down and exterminate it.

but sometimes it just wont go away

and its damn freaking frustrating.

im having pre monday blues already.

the dumb just got dumberer.

argh

and im sick of doing tutorials

and studying for tests

all i want to do

is to lie flat and do nothing at all

and not have anything bothering me,

at all.


all messed up again///

the past two days

have been marked by utter stupidity.

first i didnt rip the darn letter open fully,

resulting in an important loss of information.

then today i miss fired

and kicked onto the wall instead of the sandbag.

there re now lumps all over my shin

thanks to my exploits

with the invulnerable master jiawei.

i think theres too much stress on my knees

theyll just give way one day.

there are only two things in this world that is limitless

the universe and human stupidity.

oh yea

and my butt hurts too.


on a lighter note

there are two additions to my royal kingdom

ROYAL GUMMY BEAR- wxy
(status to be confirmed)- d0tZ

muahaa

thou shalt obey thy emperor


box me up and send me home__

its all so omni present.

the more i try to grab it

the more evasive it gets.

bzzz

school is tiring la.

lamong.

pssssssssssssst.


come closer___

maybe i should really get down

to thinking what i really want.

ive been lead by the nose

for so long

that ive always been feeling lost and aimless

and its anxiety and apprehension all the time.

it has been so long since i really felt

positive about something,

looking forward and enjoying the moment.

i should start studying like shit,

because without that shit i would get nowhere.

shit really stinks

but the more it stinks

the more youll think that it doesnt.

i wanna get something out of my life

at the end of every phase of it.

time to get realistic

and into the shit.

my pinky got killed

its now swollen and unbendable.

my right thumb's still sprained

and i cant -clack- it.

lamong.

i think im suffering from sleep deprivation again

and its so hot laR.



sometimes the more you want

the worse it gets.

especially if its avoiding you.

...

i need some umph in my life.

week 2 was scary

lessons became more overwhelming

with tests and such,

there was hardly any space to catch a breath.

just woke up today.

shall go easy on this weekend

if not ill carry my tiredness and lethargy to next week

and the next

and the next next

till i cant take it no more.

campfire last night was absolutely fun

and nostalgic

and dont be mistaken

im really from sji.

lamong.

im feeling more at peace today

must be the cold weather and the loooong sleep i had.

but thinking bout the next few weeks to come,

ill just become more depressed again.

bazamong.



i still dont want to lose it

sometimes

some things are beyond one's control.

and some things are meant to be

while others are not.

often,

its either you're extremely lucky

or you put in alot of effort to make things happen.

however, sometimes no matter how much you yearn for it

it just wouldnt happen,

not even the slightest shadow,

not even a glimmer of hope.

all i know is that i was lifted to the nine heavens

and dropped.

day by day

the longing grows

all so much that its eating the insides.

malabong.

its distracting, its sweet, its bitter, its false, its supericial, its real,


its pissifying.


why do we question so much

why do we always think that our ideas are better than others

why are we always putting down others

they said that we are meant for greater things

but nothing meaningful ever comes out of these greater minds

of what use is being great when nothing great ever surfaces out of the great men and women?


yet again

its all so complicated

but so simple.

my in step is swollen again.


link my thoughts

it was a long day yesterday though lessons ended at 12.

the agony of the new term is relentless

where there is a galore of tests and tonnes of assignments to do.

the pace of work makes me breathless.

i cant wait for all this to end.

lucky for me there was training for me to trash things out and apart.

sometimes people are just unpredictable

and what seems obvious may be oblivious to the common eye.

there are disappointments but amongst the thorns lies a rose.

peace and solace can be found in the midst of chaos and disturbance.

we spent the last half hour or so bashing and spinning and kicking at the targets

like there was no tomorrow

and as if the face of some well hated nemesis was inked onto it.

waha

so much angst, aggression and skill

and when all these are mixed together

we become very dangerous people.

thats cool man.

so stay away

for a disgraced soldier cannot stand up to the might of a unanimous vehemence.

the old a02 gang plus chenwei celebrated jacq's bday last night

and the moment i reached home i dropped dead and snoozed till the afternoon today.



its all too messy

first day of school today.

and im feeling depressed already.

there wasnt much to see early in the morning

and first thing that greeted us was the physics test

which everyone thought was going to be next week.

what a boring day.

then came tkd.

annoyed.

i hate it when people question my ethics.

haish.

long day ahead tmr

and im feeling real tired.

i feel like dropping dead.

jezz shoot me.

onward comrades

im already starting to feel that this year aint gonna be an easy one.

but we will not die

we will survive.



sometimes its just how things are

happy 2007

may the new year be a better one.

the mess of 2006 kinda died down after april

where things started to become routine.

like what chinaman said

"we've been through alot this year,

hope we'll pull through."

well we sure did pull through,

thing is,

at what price?

but i believe that the sacrifices made

matched up to the gains reaped.

06a02.06s6c.tkd.shanghaiocip.

am really glad to be in the class that im in.

the most rockalicious class ive ever had man.

and im relieved to meet such wonderful classmates.

my time in tkd saw an unexpected twist of events.

initially my high hopes were dropped

and i dint really fit in

for the only ppl i could talk to was yichun and mr guna LOL

then in came shenny who proved to be a butt smacking fella.

and entered yushu and some random people here and there

and tkd just became more exciting

as there were more people who shared the same interest

and of coz, the same enemy.

shanghai ocip is beyond words.

but all thats left is just memories.

great ones.

before i lose my sanity in the coming year

and retreat into my dellusional world,

its a big thank you to all who touched my life one way or another.

and no apologises to those who got hurt.

meow-



a hug, a kiss, and a little more love are all we need

to sustain our pathetic lives on earth.