damned


3 dec already


i should stop waiting


and start doing my hmwk


raaaaaaRRR


sickening


rarrrrr


aiya


my foots swollen again


immobilised.


3.44 am


hvnt stayed up till so late for a long time


usually at these ungodly hours


ill be spammed with rocky waves of nostalgia


and nausea


today


i feel different


i feel


unleashed.


save for the fear of over piling hmwk


okay


the same feeling is coming now.


normally i get frustrated by stuff that i cant solve


or have been bugging me for real long.


i get pissed at little things too


like how bad my spelling is


and how trash-y my england has become.


sometimes i get angry for not ironing my uniform


damn


i think im retarded.


maybe i should really drop my pants and run ard naked.


i dont know


this year hadnt been an insane year as i had thought it would be


oh well


it was kinda messy at the start


getting into the wrong place


getting hooked up with wrong people, cca and crap


i staunchly believed that ren ding sheng tian


that we are masters of our own destiny


all so till times of desperation and despair


then id wish that miracles will happen


im a confusing and contraversial thing.


not thinking straight any more.


shanghai.


yay.