get a life u sick bastard.
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maths should die too, along with GP

chem

physics

and econs.

one more paper.

im dying.

i needa rebooot.

i have no idea what the world holds for me.

i live one day at a time.

i think im miserable.

self indulgent arses everywhere.

makes me sick inside out.

get a life.

go lick ur feet

and stop thinking that you own the world.

i think im a catastrophe to mankind.

i should just terminate my existence

and deliver joy to the world.

but then again

there are worse bastards out there who deserve to die

get mutilated

burned

skinned

whipped

and hair pulled out

a thousand times over.

so considering that there are infinitely many scums of the earth

one little pest more wunt harm the natural balance and equilibrium

of this pathetic little hole of mankind.

im feeling degenerate.

i need a boost.

i need to do some soul seatching.

the ghosts are back,

in swarms.

when past meets present

how are you going to handle it?

i dont wanna do maths anymore.

i needa shout it out

loud.

release all the bottled up grievances.

im starting to think

if im eluding myself.

pretending to be all happy and untained

when ive never recovered from the past.

i wanna stop talking to myself.

i need someone real to lean on

to talk to

who would listen

undertsand

and who would stand by me when the skies come crashing down.

i hate my gory past.

full of anger

hate

vengefulness

annoying gay shit.

my past was bloody and traught with a deep sense of loss.

history never teaches me a lesson.

it just mirrors the present.

i admit,

im confused.

i wanted the world

but at the same time wished the mighty self would just disappear,

because after the world came to me,

it turned its back against me.

abandoning me in the wilderness

leaving me to contemplate just what evil i have done

to receive such retribution.

the world is a horrid place.

there are liars.

big fat ugly people.

there are cats.

lost minute but intimidating.

there are mercenaries.

hit kill and run all in the name of self interest.

i fear.

i pray.

i hope and wonder,

will this world ever be a better place?

will there ever be some good in man?

im starting to feel very scared

mainly 'cause im rather unprepared.

last night

i dreamt of a dreamer.

i guess it once again reflected how much

i wanted to talk to someone

and how much i wanted to be accepted.

but thats not important now,

for i will face the mountains and storms

with a little more than a sickly old donkey.

just pray and hope that everything will turn out right

and ill be as lucky as before.

but i know this time it won't work

'cause the stars have lost their shine.

His Highness, Emperor Muthu, King of the Great

has returned victorious once again from his glorious exploits.

His Highness, has successfully expanded his reign

and extended the borders of The Kingdom of Muthu-stan.

Current population of the Kingdom stands at 8

not including the thousands of sheep and cows that roam the green pastures.

In alphabetical order:

Royal Abbot, Liao Xin Wei
Royal Chef, Chi Yu Tse (Pending)
Royal Jester, Yap Jia Wei Bryan
Royal Maiden 1st Class, Liew Hui Ting Lynette
Royal Monkey 2nd Class, Ng Pei Yi Audrey
Royal Musician, Koh Yan Min
Royal Persian Carpet, Tan Jit How Benjamin
Royal Potty Warmer 1st Class, Shawn Tan Ah Beng

Vacancies are still available

apply for citizenship in the Kingdom of Muthu-stan now!

im disturbed

how can anyone be so indifferent

towards someone

who kinda went off course

and that someone

is like the world to him.

release me.

everytime something goes wrong

ill get affected.

just knock some bloody sense into ur heads will you

never had family felt this close.

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alot more to study

practically hvnt touched maths econs n chem

spent like one and a half weeks on physics

tan hui zhen ought to be proud of me

sucker.

3 more weeks to promos.

in fact its like 2 n a half weeks.

screwed.

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lose myself in the music around.

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one day i shall fight in tkd nationals

but maybe that one day will never come.

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ive been thinking so much

that ive forgotten how to speak.

maybe i should just give up talking altogether.
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they just leave

without saying goodbye.

one day

i will disappear

without bidding farewell too.