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Tuesday, August 29, 2006 @ 12:25 AM
雨后落下一里的幽香
雄花掉落山底的伪装 落叶排成思念的形状 我唱着song 不去看 樱花飘落悲谷的悠雅 藏着一句说不出的话 窗外吹着屋里的牵挂 轻轻吹动 我头发 初次 的爱你 化自痛的伤 我不想抵抗 该要如何学会隐藏 傻傻的微笑表情却无法言语 偷偷的像是记忆里幸福的相机 静静的呼吸身边有你的空气 我还记得 你说樱花很美丽 不愿意在今夜从你身边离去 不忘记写下樱花飘落的那场雨 不放弃心中刻下了永远爱你 你说我和你 都为了此刻 着迷 _______________________ too tired to get anything in another wasted day aHHH promos creeping closer sometimes i just wished that the smart genes are in me then i need not slog so hard but on the other hand ill die earlier so maybe its alright to be dumb coz i can luff at the smart ppl while they lie in their grave all pale dressed up and ready for cremation. its only fair that when life takes somethign away from you they replace it with something else as valuable so life is fair. but on the other life may not be that fair. oh well. it just kinda sucks to be caught up with all the mind boggling action and thoughts that i can never seem to get straight. i simply dont know if ive really gotten over it or its just that i dont wish to remember so i automatically keep those memories out. i no longer believe in the greater good of people. we're all selfish we do things only in the interest of ourselves. innocent and truely simple people are hard to come by. we live in self dillusion and denial where we think that theres any good left in the world. life wasnt created a utopia. and it certainly wunt end as one. i cant sleep. im sick of physics econs chem and maths. time is running out and im getting flustered but i just cant get anything in! release me. im sick of people asking me what i wanna do next time what great ambitions i have because i truely have none. im aimless directionless penniless smart-less. i dont mind being a xiao ren wu someone who works under the shadows of giants and claim nothing to my name as long as im happy and the people around me are happy too. however it contridicts my inner demon. it says that i should fight and strive as hard as i can and never be beaten down. because people have looked down on the once puny creature and it grew into such heights and fear striking figure. it says that i can be good or even better than many others because others have told me that i am meant for greater things. and i should not stop at anything less than great. it proclaims that if i hold my not-willing-to-lose mentality' others can be beaten down. this demon is called rationality. when i cross the boundary what do i get. and how do i maintain such distinct yet overlapping difference? i still cant sleep. i keep wondering why we have a trouble with authority why we are always pulled down by such degrading angst humiliating wei qu situations. we are good people we serve for the best of others we put in eevrything we can in whatever we do but we just seem to be unappreciated unnoticed. im going to sleep now make me run___ |
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Saturday, August 26, 2006 @ 12:21 AM
never had my life ever been so simple
where i need not worry about blind jealousy hurtful relationships and undying fear. i guess simplicity for now is THE bliss. a few more months till the end of j1 sucks. so fast. maybe they should extend the years we study in jc or maybe i could retain i guess my jc year so far is the best ive ever had since pri sch. _______________________________________ when ideality clashes with reality which one do you pursue? at a time when you're struggling at the crossroad of growing maturity, fading naivity and stagnant stupidity which do you let overwhelm? can ultimate intelligence match up to sheer sociability and knowledge? i starting to feel that im at a point where im contradicting myself maybe im losing myself all together. im spinning |
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Sunday, August 20, 2006 @ 6:33 PM
oh manx
so many topics to study rarrrr im hungry hot sweaty sleepy high rarrrrr walao exams just couldnt get any worse and i say bang bang your left FOoT! hmmm i guess all my life in hwachong is about doing tutorials studying for tests and SPAs and exams and trying to lose weight. just what do i really wnat to get out of these two years i don't know. and i hope it isnt just a report card. i wanna be a tour guide next time wahahahaha star spangled banner |
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@ 3:01 AM
suddenly thought of the past
how stupid i was how unforgiving i was towards myself and others how i thought i was so smart and knew how things were going to be oh well. just some random thoughts anyway. i guess that when one experiences near hell situations, no matter how small they are relative to the world, he would be hardened and disillusioned. when when more comes his heart shatters and forms a heap of unsurmountable peaks where the initial core of innocence, naiveness, hope and love lie encasted. reality is so far off ideality and perception. sometimes i just find it so hard to hold on to my beliefs simply because they hurt so much. ___________________________________________________ i miss lots of stuff and people and the memories that were forgotten but resurged. will they ever know that i miss them? ______________________________________________________ sometimes i just feel that im surrounded by kids and childish brats i dont feel like 17 anw better sleeep now lots of pw more to do tmr crap. release me.
on the other hand maybe i should really drop chem and physics and run around naked |
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Saturday, August 19, 2006 @ 9:01 PM
i should just drop chem and physics and run around naked |
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